I remember sitting on the Tube, nervously replaying the events of that night in my head.
Recently, I’ve been thinking a lot about sin. Not so much about what it is. I know how the Bible describes someone who sins:
“Their throat is an open grave; they use their tongues to deceive.” “The venom of asps is under their lips.” “Their mouth is full of curses and bitterness.” “Their feet are swift to shed blood; in their paths are ruin and misery” Romans 3:13-16 ESV.
Sin is part of the human experience. But it’s not stiletto-snapping, drink-tipping messiness. Sin is a direct offense against God. Sin nailed Jesus to the cross.
Happy Good Friday, by the way.
I believe I sin daily. I fall short of the behavior and attitude God calls me to (Rom. 3:23) on a regular basis. But I have also experienced what I can best define as seasons of sin. When a sinful pattern has sewn itself into the fabric of my everyday life—to the point where I notice it.
Through that, I have learned something about sin: it makes me feel very lonely.
Nothing can separate us from the LOVE of God (Rom. 8:39). God loves you when you sin, when you reject Him, and when you slander Him.
Similarly, I know my parents would still love me even if I went off the rails.
But at the same time, the relationship would be fractured. Sin damages how we relate to God:
Behold, the Lord’s hand is not shortened, that it cannot save, or his ear dull, that it cannot hear; but your iniquities have made a separation between you and your God, and your sins have hidden his face from you so that he does not hear. Isaiah 59:1-2 ESV.
For me, in my past ‘seasons of sin,’ I don’t pray. I avoid Bible verses. I shut myself off at church. I don’t want to confront how I’m rebelling against God. Consequently, God becomes a distant idea in my life. That’s a loneliness I believe only Christians would understand.
On top of that, I feel lonely among my Christian friends. I’m blessed to have people in my life who call out my sin—but that also means I keep secrets if I don’t want to be called out. If someone asks how I’m doing, I lie and that creates a barrier between us.
But at the least, at the most personal and internal level, sin isolates me.
Fortunately, this isolation makes me long for God. I still want a right relationship with Him and with my Christian friends. I want to be in community again. This doesn’t just require that I come clean. It’s means feeling sincerely sorry for my sin and moving away from ever doing it again. That’s what an end to a season of sin looks like to me.
So for this Easter, I’m dwelling on what sin is and also, what it does. The most important thing is that sin sets us on the path to hell. It separates us from God in eternity.
Also, as I’ve realized, in the small every day moments of the average Christian life, sin makes me feel very lonely.
But the good news is, there is Jesus:
In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of his grace. Ephesians 1:7 MEV.
Happy Easter, everyone.