What I Like About Myself the Most

Earlier this week, I blogged on sanfordcoffee.com about how volunteering for Palate Coffee Brewery improved my confidence. And I wanted to go further into something. Particularly about how it’s been a pattern in my life to hear people say: “Rachel, you don’t talk much.” Honestly, I hear that ALL the time. My friend tells me, “You don’t ever have to worry about talking about yourself … Continue reading What I Like About Myself the Most

How to Travel in London (When You Hate London)

So here is the issue, I don’t hate London. But crowds, small places like tube stations, and stressed/busy environments make me mildly anxious. London is one of the greatest cities in the world. Actually this is an issue that I’ve heard a lot over the past few years. People agree that yes, London is amazing but that to be honest, I hate London, I can’t stand London, … Continue reading How to Travel in London (When You Hate London)

We Need to Talk About Our Friendship

Why did I move to Florida? I’m sitting in the parking lot outside my friend’s apartment, browning under the sun’s hot breath. My fingers pick at Publix sushi that’s gone slimy. Orlando is wet, sticky, violent. It’s the place where you learn the contours of your body through sweaty shorts and tank tops.* Except, I’m wearing long pants. Why did I wear long pants? And … Continue reading We Need to Talk About Our Friendship

How to Say Goodbye

If I know how to do anything, it would be saying goodbye. I’m practically a professional by now. Families move. People graduate.  An experience comes into full cycle. I planned a leaving party for a friend of mine where we ate brownies and shared fairly disgusting and embarrassing stories which will not grace the internet. That was one recent goodbye. I’m preparing others for my own … Continue reading How to Say Goodbye

Why I Can’t Be By Myself

I’m at a pizza place by myself, sweating through my coffeeshop T-shirt and chewing on a slice of pepperoni. As I scroll through the contacts on my phone, my fingers leave greasy smudges on the screen. I call the leasing office at my apartment complex and, when a lady answers, I say: “Hi. So, erm, have you got any two-bedroom apartments?” Because big news, everyone: … Continue reading Why I Can’t Be By Myself

My Problems Are Worse Than Yours

This doesn’t happen often. But when it does, I notice it big time. I’m sitting in bible study—this was years ago, mind you—and a person shares with the group: “My biggest sin is pride.” And I’m like, really? Make no mistake, pride is destructive. Just read King Lear. But there is this feeling I get when someone’s problems sound less of a big deal than…cough, … Continue reading My Problems Are Worse Than Yours

How to Make Sense of a Paradoxical God

I have always enjoyed paradoxes, the blending of opposites to make something new. I see paradoxes constantly around me but particularly in the nature of God. Especially when I do not understand the logic of His being. I was taught that God was real and listening so I have always thrown my questions in His face. My prayers as a child rarely felt innocent or … Continue reading How to Make Sense of a Paradoxical God

What I Long for the Most

“Rachel, are you joining?” A woman at church points to a stack of paperbacks in her Amazon Prime box. I stare. Open my mouth. Close my mouth. “The women’s Bible study?” she adds. Oh. Bible, good. Women, good. Studying together, good. “Yes,” I say. She hands me a copy of the study book. I examine the Instagram-perfect cover: Seasons of Waiting: Walking By Faith When … Continue reading What I Long for the Most