Jesus Christ and Pumpkin Spice

September When I clock into my shift at the coffeeshop, I spy a small bottle under the counter: Pumpkin Spice syrup. I swivel 360 degrees, spotting the tucked-away bag of pumpkin spice frappé powder, the pumpkin spice candles, pumpkin spice drizzle… Call me basic. But I have never felt such pure excitement before in my life. When the coffeeshop stocks up on pumpkin spice, that … Continue reading Jesus Christ and Pumpkin Spice

This is Why Discipleship is Weird

Hey guys, this blog post draws inspirations and responds to Rachel’s last blog post Why Discipleship Weirds Me Out. Feel free to read that to get some context.  We are sitting on a picnic blanket on a warm summer day. The shade from the tree shelters us as we go through our Bibles, taking turns reading verses and discussing them. For some reason, we get onto the … Continue reading This is Why Discipleship is Weird

Why Discipleship Weirds Me Out

I like to think I’ve encountered my fair share of quirky Christian trends. 24-hour prayer sessions. Pre-wedding lingerie parties. Haunted houses that bring people to Jesus (no, seriously, that’s a thing). But one of the many buzzwords that has stumped me is discipleship. “Discipleship is teaching biblical precepts, while modeling and guiding others toward living righteously as followers of Jesus Christ. This should be a … Continue reading Why Discipleship Weirds Me Out

Why I Want to Get to Know You

One of my most treasured memories is with my friend, Ana. We’re in an outdoor pool in rural South India, drifting through the water like lily pads. Then, one of us—I can’t remember which one—asks the other: “Who were your closest friends in high school?” For the remainder of our time in the pool, we take turns describing the inner circle of people who shaped … Continue reading Why I Want to Get to Know You

How I Feel About My Life Now

Saturday afternoon. Late. Like 5ish. I roll over in bed at the dregs of my nap, gaze out my bedroom, straight into the lounge. Glowsticks in place. Non-alcoholic wine lining the fridge. A drizzle outside to rinse out the Florida air. In two hours, my friends will be here, filling my apartment with noise. I’m ready. When Savvy and I wrote our end-of-year blog post … Continue reading How I Feel About My Life Now

Why I Can’t Be By Myself

I’m at a pizza place by myself, sweating through my coffeeshop T-shirt and chewing on a slice of pepperoni. As I scroll through the contacts on my phone, my fingers leave greasy smudges on the screen. I call the leasing office at my apartment complex and, when a lady answers, I say: “Hi. So, erm, have you got any two-bedroom apartments?” Because big news, everyone: … Continue reading Why I Can’t Be By Myself

My Problems Are Worse Than Yours

This doesn’t happen often. But when it does, I notice it big time. I’m sitting in bible study—this was years ago, mind you—and a person shares with the group: “My biggest sin is pride.” And I’m like, really? Make no mistake, pride is destructive. Just read King Lear. But there is this feeling I get when someone’s problems sound less of a big deal than…cough, … Continue reading My Problems Are Worse Than Yours

What I Long for the Most

“Rachel, are you joining?” A woman at church points to a stack of paperbacks in her Amazon Prime box. I stare. Open my mouth. Close my mouth. “The women’s Bible study?” she adds. Oh. Bible, good. Women, good. Studying together, good. “Yes,” I say. She hands me a copy of the study book. I examine the Instagram-perfect cover: Seasons of Waiting: Walking By Faith When … Continue reading What I Long for the Most