Why God Lets Me Feel Lonely

If on a lazy Sunday afternoon, you happen to be at a wine cellar in suburban Florida, sharing a cheese platter with your friends on the open-air patio, you may see a twentysomething girl hunkered in the corner by herself, slurping on bottomless mimosas and scribbling things down in her OfficeMax notebook. Psst…that’s me. For your information, I have an abundance of friends and an … Continue reading Why God Lets Me Feel Lonely

Jesus Christ and Pumpkin Spice

September When I clock into my shift at the coffeeshop, I spy a small bottle under the counter: Pumpkin Spice syrup. I swivel 360 degrees, spotting the tucked-away bag of pumpkin spice frappé powder, the pumpkin spice candles, pumpkin spice drizzle… Call me basic. But I have never felt such pure excitement before in my life. When the coffeeshop stocks up on pumpkin spice, that … Continue reading Jesus Christ and Pumpkin Spice

This is Why Discipleship is Weird

Hey guys, this blog post draws inspirations and responds to Rachel’s last blog post Why Discipleship Weirds Me Out. Feel free to read that to get some context.  We are sitting on a picnic blanket on a warm summer day. The shade from the tree shelters us as we go through our Bibles, taking turns reading verses and discussing them. For some reason, we get onto the … Continue reading This is Why Discipleship is Weird

Why I Want to Get to Know You

One of my most treasured memories is with my friend, Ana. We’re in an outdoor pool in rural South India, drifting through the water like lily pads. Then, one of us—I can’t remember which one—asks the other: “Who were your closest friends in high school?” For the remainder of our time in the pool, we take turns describing the inner circle of people who shaped … Continue reading Why I Want to Get to Know You

How I Feel About My Life Now

Saturday afternoon. Late. Like 5ish. I roll over in bed at the dregs of my nap, gaze out my bedroom, straight into the lounge. Glowsticks in place. Non-alcoholic wine lining the fridge. A drizzle outside to rinse out the Florida air. In two hours, my friends will be here, filling my apartment with noise. I’m ready. When Savvy and I wrote our end-of-year blog post … Continue reading How I Feel About My Life Now

Why I Can’t Be By Myself

I’m at a pizza place by myself, sweating through my coffeeshop T-shirt and chewing on a slice of pepperoni. As I scroll through the contacts on my phone, my fingers leave greasy smudges on the screen. I call the leasing office at my apartment complex and, when a lady answers, I say: “Hi. So, erm, have you got any two-bedroom apartments?” Because big news, everyone: … Continue reading Why I Can’t Be By Myself