3 Things I’ve Learned From Reading the Entire Bible

“I think we need to do a Bible boot camp for you.” When my friend suggested this, I said no. Then I said maybe. This was last spring. At the time, I was overwhelmed with Christian stuff. Monday to Friday I worked for a Christian company. Sunday morning I went to church. Wednesday night I attended women’s Bible study. Everywhere in between, I hung out … Continue reading 3 Things I’ve Learned From Reading the Entire Bible

Why God Lets Me Feel Lonely

If on a lazy Sunday afternoon, you happen to be at a wine cellar in suburban Florida, sharing a cheese platter with your friends on the open-air patio, you may see a twentysomething girl hunkered in the corner by herself, slurping on bottomless mimosas and scribbling things down in her OfficeMax notebook. Psst…that’s me. For your information, I have an abundance of friends and an … Continue reading Why God Lets Me Feel Lonely

Jesus Christ and Pumpkin Spice

September When I clock into my shift at the coffeeshop, I spy a small bottle under the counter: Pumpkin Spice syrup. I swivel 360 degrees, spotting the tucked-away bag of pumpkin spice frappé powder, the pumpkin spice candles, pumpkin spice drizzle… Call me basic. But I have never felt such pure excitement before in my life. When the coffeeshop stocks up on pumpkin spice, that … Continue reading Jesus Christ and Pumpkin Spice

How I Feel About My Life Now

Saturday afternoon. Late. Like 5ish. I roll over in bed at the dregs of my nap, gaze out my bedroom, straight into the lounge. Glowsticks in place. Non-alcoholic wine lining the fridge. A drizzle outside to rinse out the Florida air. In two hours, my friends will be here, filling my apartment with noise. I’m ready. When Savvy and I wrote our end-of-year blog post … Continue reading How I Feel About My Life Now

My Problems Are Worse Than Yours

This doesn’t happen often. But when it does, I notice it big time. I’m sitting in bible study—this was years ago, mind you—and a person shares with the group: “My biggest sin is pride.” And I’m like, really? Make no mistake, pride is destructive. Just read King Lear. But there is this feeling I get when someone’s problems sound less of a big deal than…cough, … Continue reading My Problems Are Worse Than Yours

How to Make Sense of a Paradoxical God

I have always enjoyed paradoxes, the blending of opposites to make something new. I see paradoxes constantly around me but particularly in the nature of God. Especially when I do not understand the logic of His being. I was taught that God was real and listening so I have always thrown my questions in His face. My prayers as a child rarely felt innocent or … Continue reading How to Make Sense of a Paradoxical God

What I Long for the Most

“Rachel, are you joining?” A woman at church points to a stack of paperbacks in her Amazon Prime box. I stare. Open my mouth. Close my mouth. “The women’s Bible study?” she adds. Oh. Bible, good. Women, good. Studying together, good. “Yes,” I say. She hands me a copy of the study book. I examine the Instagram-perfect cover: Seasons of Waiting: Walking By Faith When … Continue reading What I Long for the Most

Savvy’s Weird Education Journey

I never thought that I would go to university, even though everyone always told me that I should go. I didn’t think of myself as going to university type. I didn’t want to go into either ten thousands dollars of debt or thousands pounds of debt. Honestly, I never considered university was a plausible option for me. Then six years ago, out of the blue and … Continue reading Savvy’s Weird Education Journey