Jesus Christ and Pumpkin Spice

September When I clock into my shift at the coffeeshop, I spy a small bottle under the counter: Pumpkin Spice syrup. I swivel 360 degrees, spotting the tucked-away bag of pumpkin spice frappé powder, the pumpkin spice candles, pumpkin spice drizzle… Call me basic. But I have never felt such pure excitement before in my life. When the coffeeshop stocks up on pumpkin spice, that … Continue reading Jesus Christ and Pumpkin Spice

This is Why Discipleship is Weird

Hey guys, this blog post draws inspirations and responds to Rachel’s last blog post Why Discipleship Weirds Me Out. Feel free to read that to get some context.  We are sitting on a picnic blanket on a warm summer day. The shade from the tree shelters us as we go through our Bibles, taking turns reading verses and discussing them. For some reason, we get onto the … Continue reading This is Why Discipleship is Weird

Is Women’s Ministry More Than Motherhood?

Honestly, I don’t like church when it doesn’t apply to me. I mean, what is the point? (Daaaaamnn, Savvy…real talk here… – Rachel 😉 ) The same goes for women’s ministry. Yes, I’m talking about those late morning brunches with pastries and strawberries, craft evenings, going-through-how-to-be-a-woman-of-God book evenings that are just a few examples of what encompasses women’s ministry (at least in my experience). Now … Continue reading Is Women’s Ministry More Than Motherhood?

Why I Can’t Be By Myself

I’m at a pizza place by myself, sweating through my coffeeshop T-shirt and chewing on a slice of pepperoni. As I scroll through the contacts on my phone, my fingers leave greasy smudges on the screen. I call the leasing office at my apartment complex and, when a lady answers, I say: “Hi. So, erm, have you got any two-bedroom apartments?” Because big news, everyone: … Continue reading Why I Can’t Be By Myself

My Problems Are Worse Than Yours

This doesn’t happen often. But when it does, I notice it big time. I’m sitting in bible study—this was years ago, mind you—and a person shares with the group: “My biggest sin is pride.” And I’m like, really? Make no mistake, pride is destructive. Just read King Lear. But there is this feeling I get when someone’s problems sound less of a big deal than…cough, … Continue reading My Problems Are Worse Than Yours

How to Make Sense of a Paradoxical God

I have always enjoyed paradoxes, the blending of opposites to make something new. I see paradoxes constantly around me but particularly in the nature of God. Especially when I do not understand the logic of His being. I was taught that God was real and listening so I have always thrown my questions in His face. My prayers as a child rarely felt innocent or … Continue reading How to Make Sense of a Paradoxical God

What I Long for the Most

“Rachel, are you joining?” A woman at church points to a stack of paperbacks in her Amazon Prime box. I stare. Open my mouth. Close my mouth. “The women’s Bible study?” she adds. Oh. Bible, good. Women, good. Studying together, good. “Yes,” I say. She hands me a copy of the study book. I examine the Instagram-perfect cover: Seasons of Waiting: Walking By Faith When … Continue reading What I Long for the Most