3 Things I’ve Learned From Reading the Entire Bible

“I think we need to do a Bible boot camp for you.” When my friend suggested this, I said no. Then I said maybe. This was last spring. At the time, I was overwhelmed with Christian stuff. Monday to Friday I worked for a Christian company. Sunday morning I went to church. Wednesday night I attended women’s Bible study. Everywhere in between, I hung out … Continue reading 3 Things I’ve Learned From Reading the Entire Bible

We Need to Talk About Our Friendship

Why did I move to Florida? I’m sitting in the parking lot outside my friend’s apartment, browning under the sun’s hot breath. My fingers pick at Publix sushi that’s gone slimy. Orlando is wet, sticky, violent. It’s the place where you learn the contours of your body through sweaty shorts and tank tops.* Except, I’m wearing long pants. Why did I wear long pants? And … Continue reading We Need to Talk About Our Friendship

My Problems Are Worse Than Yours

This doesn’t happen often. But when it does, I notice it big time. I’m sitting in bible study—this was years ago, mind you—and a person shares with the group: “My biggest sin is pride.” And I’m like, really? Make no mistake, pride is destructive. Just read King Lear. But there is this feeling I get when someone’s problems sound less of a big deal than…cough, … Continue reading My Problems Are Worse Than Yours

What I Long for the Most

“Rachel, are you joining?” A woman at church points to a stack of paperbacks in her Amazon Prime box. I stare. Open my mouth. Close my mouth. “The women’s Bible study?” she adds. Oh. Bible, good. Women, good. Studying together, good. “Yes,” I say. She hands me a copy of the study book. I examine the Instagram-perfect cover: Seasons of Waiting: Walking By Faith When … Continue reading What I Long for the Most

What I Used to Believe

“I’m struggling with my faith.” Nothing sounded more annoying to me than those words. And I heard it all the time. From my Christian friends to my fellow churchgoers, from coworkers to pastors. “If you’re struggling with your faith.…” “Are you struggling with your faith?” “Yeah, I’m really struggling with my faith.” I would roll my eyes each time. For one thing, why is it … Continue reading What I Used to Believe